Why I’m taking a 3 month Self-Care Sabbatical

3 Feb

It’s taken me a while to share this post, and today I feel ready 💜

A few weeks ago, I was experiencing yet another day on struggle street … and I realised that my nervous system, my body and soul all desperately needed a break.

I noticed that fatigue and anxiety had become my norm, for a really long time.

I reflected how over the last 25 years in my art biz and especially since becoming a mum, I have been hustling to make my art business successful, support my family, to achieve, do, share, help and be kind and caring to all I meet.

Then I realised I actually don’t know who I am, in terms of my self worth, without striving to achieve something or please someone.

My body has been slowly breaking down over the last few years, amped up now in my mid-40’s as I navigate intense and debilitating perimenopause symptoms, alongside existing chronic health conditions, within my naturally sensitive neurodivergent nervous system.

It’s like over and over, life has been tapping me on the shoulder to listen to my needs. I operate differently to the Western living model that has been handed down to me.

And then, after thinking I had been listening, I really, I mean REALLY listened.

I felt gently filled with spiritual wisdom, that there is a different way I can be in the world, that supports both my capacity and values of generosity, soulful connection and authenticity.

I’m curious to find out.
I’m ready to get real with myself.
I’m ready to stop running, and start resting.
I’m here for myself, equal to and more than (eek!), as much as I am for others.
I’m letting go to my need for the slow.
I’m listening to my body.
I’m taking 3 months off to care for myself.

And it feels so right.

So for now, I am taking a pause on all my therapeutic art offerings.